GUTS

Today I attended the first day of a two day conference regarding new rules and regulations regarding wetland delineations, jurisdiction, and permitting. I was excited when I realized I knew nearly a dozen other consultants there--like, "I'm mad deep in this game, yo!"--but was annoyed about the obligatory schmoozing that took place at that point. I hate schmoozing. It involves pretending to know about stuff I don't know about, and stuff I don't care about, as if I cared about it. I hate feeling like I don't know about things, and I really hate pretending like I know about them. Anyways, I'm frequently good at bullshitting, so whatev's.

This is all to say you should trust your gut in a lot of situations. If you feel uncomfortable about something, it's probably for good reason: you are around bad people; you are doing a bad thing; you are in a situation that is not good for you, etc. You should either take yourself out of it, or make it better. I guess in my case, I am continuing to learn about stuff related to my job, and I just need to keep with it. I didn't really prove anything just now. But I do believe that people should trust their guts in pretty much every situation. Like, in high school I felt like I was constantly being quizzed by my peers about what was punk and what was cool, and when I didn't know, I felt stupid. But I started learning about music and politics and was eventually able to hold my own. I started developing my own identity and my own thoughts. Then I started feeling really good when I was pressed.

Does any of this make sense? I dunno. WARM WEATHER! PEACE OUT!