Work

Busting my ass at work - didn't get home until 11PM last night. I have super mixed feelings about all of it. Beautiful sunny day before a week of expected rain - perfect for planting 530 trees and getting sunburns. Working hard, pulling your weight, and giving extra effort can be rewarding in some ways or demeaning in others. I spent a lot of time agonizing over the tensions that characterize employer-employee relationships: expectations and effort... I thought about all the stupid decisions my boss was making, and focusing on all the things he wasn't doing. I was over-simplifying everything. When I realized late in the day that I was just going to have my ass busted until sundown, I stopped fighting it and relaxed a bit. I decided to stick to it, I also chose to enjoy a sit-down dinner with my coworkers instead of rushing home--it definitely made the day more pleasurable.

Working for someone else is hard, emotionally, especially if your only motivation is money.
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And I didn't have to experience this, but no one at any job should make you feel like shit, and especially not tear you down in front of anyone else. That's some pointless, hateful, demeaning bullshit. Any person that thinks they can bully someone below them needs to be set straight Unfortunately, people with delusions of grandeur do have the power to abuse and the authority to keep people in check with fear. Is the job worth it?