Work, waiting

At work, wishing I wasn't.

The day started off pretty stupid. I probably made record time biking the 1.5 miles to the office - it had to be well under 7 minutes. I pulled into the parking lot and was pumped to realize I was the first of the 3 of our staff to arrive and that it was before 8:30 am. I immediately realized I didn't have my keys (which occasionally happens when I don't drive). I decided to wait it out because my co-worker is usually there by 8:30, if not 8:00, if not 7:00. Seriously. Overachiever. Every minute I waited I felt like I had waited too long and my co-worker would arrive and that rushing home would just be a waste of time.

Long story short, I sat outside our office for 30, maybe 40 minutes, before my co-worker arrived just as I was opening my phone to call my boss on his cell. I could've biked home (and back) at least twice. What was more frustrating was my boss showed up exactly 2 minutes after she did.

In that time I was waiting I was just paralyzed. I was furious. Not sure how I'll handle it next time. I don't do well with uncertainty. But maybe I'll just bike home anyway, get the extra workout, the extra miles, and be late for work. F it.
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A guy (Jon) who I met in Columbus invited me on a group (bike) ride/camping trip to Yellow Springs from Columbus. Apparently a 65-mile trip (one way). I really want to go but woke up this morning freaking out that I probably can't make it. Like, can't physically do it. It's in 3 weeks and if I could possibly do a 20-mile ride this weekend and a 40-mile ride the following weekend... then maybe. But the chances of making time to even do those training rides is low to zero. Jon suggested I come out for one of the weekly Monday Night Rides and that we could do 20-40 miles in a group, but they get together so late... Technically we have all day to do it... Grrrrrr. I've put myself down to go, along with 4 other confirmed riders according to the event's Facebook page...
More later...